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Through the night, I walk abreast in the midnight breeze.
Walking down the streets, feeling the wind on my skin.
I realized how long I've been working, not having any rest;
just toiling and toiling, never really went out to see the sunset.

As I went for a walk around the neighbourhood, I could smell the fragrance from the mango trees,
its pretty flowers dancing in the smiling sunrays, glorious, graceful and magnificent.
I never knew such beauty, or maybe I did;
After so long of being shut in a place of darkness, pressure and pain, its about time I stepped out to join the rain.

I could feel the rain drops fall on my skin;
such a gentle touch, a whisper from the wind.
The coolness warms my heart, I wonder when it will ever stop.
I close my eyes, embracing the sights, the sounds and the loving caress of the cool waters.

Lay down in bed at ten minutes to one, my wandering thoughts, stay, be still, stay calm;
I stare at the ceiling, imagining the stars twinkling so bright,
The heart misses an unknown source; maybe its you, maybe, its God.
Felt so faraway, but it all remains the same.

I want to change, but though the spirit is willing, the flesh is weak;
'Reach out your hand, oh child,' He says to me.
My hope and my song, my strength and my shield,
You give me strength to go on.

Long as life will ever last, I know one promise that will everlast -
His promise of eternity, His sacrifice for truth, His love for life;
Nothing can separate, nothing can come between;
Take control now, wash me, oh wash me clean.

This broken hands of mine will need Your strength,
Your strength... to make it through this life.
I lift up my hands to the heavens, singing the only hymn I can hear in my heart,
For Yours is the honour, the glory and the power for ever and ever.

Take control, I beg Thee, take control.
"Take heart,' He says, 'For you are LOVED.'
I do not deserve Thee, yet Thy love has made me whole.
Let not the sins of this world take me away from Your everlasting love.

You are most beautiful, ever divine.
Thank You, dear Lord, Your peace now mine.

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