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That Little Bit of Happiness

They laughed at her 'misfortune'
Although she knew they meant no harm
And it was just playful banter

However
Deep inside
She still felt the piercing pain
But it couldn't really be felt
She couldn't cry
She tried
But she never ever wept.

She could never cry
Because she didn't really lose anything
Anything, but her own pride

But he was always kind
Somehow, she felt that he knew
He always knew, but he chose to keep her that dignity
And allow her to move on gradually.

The thing is
She still feels it
She still can't get over it
She's still dealing with it
She's still trying to accept it

She's glad that he's still part of her life
He always will be
She adamantly chooses to believe

He means the world to her
But it was still too much to bear
She still appreciates every detail
Every recognition
Every encouragement
Everything... there.

She knows that she will one day need to lay these feelings to rest
But he'll always be that person
Who'll inspire her to be her very best.

She still loves him
But this time
As a very precious friend.

He is the little bit of happiness that she wanted to keep
For the rest of her days.

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